its a little hard to breath here right now. i just went outside and took this rather frightening photo from my back porch
this is the view over my back fence right now.
its getting darker by the minute, and there little bits of ash dancing around getting stuck in my eyes. the smoke and wind are fierce, and its hot. this fire is still 30kms west of here, would have to jump a major highway and eat through serious terrain before it got here, but still, its freaking me out, and reminding me yet again of the bravery and selflessness of first responders.
its october, and the fires are already upon us. it wont even think about cooling down now until march. 5 months of relentless pressure. if its this bad this early its a significant worry. im so grateful our FUCKWIT prime minister just canned the climate change department. because obviously theres no need for that kind of rubbish.
its been hard to breath all week really. i was officially notified on monday that i have an interview for my continuing position on tues the 22nd at 3.15pm. that means i have to come back early from the conference i’m presenting at in canberra on monday. it also means i will know before my bday (oct 27) whether i have my dream job or not. i am terrified. i know i have a big advantage, but my head is running through all the what ifs, what if someone fantastic applied, what if someone on the panel really doesnt like me, what if im too old, what if im not good enough. i have a one hour interview and have to give a presentation. oh god.
so, no, i cant breath. i’ve been trying to just keep it in the moment. i didnt go to sydney last weekend as i’d hoped, just too much happening. i had to spend $1200 replacing the front suspension on my 12 year old forrester.
totally worth it though. plus the small matter of a little escapee dog. we went down the beach instead
i love swimming with possum, she adores the water and waits for me to say ‘ready set go’ and then she jumps in, swims around, and then she climbs out and looks at me to do it again. i love her. lila wasnt quite sure about these antics
i was a bit sad to not be in sydney, so i just took my time and sat with my feet in the water, letting the cool saltiness try and wash some of the tension away
and then i made myself my favourite summer lunch
(other things i like about summer)
and then when it got too hot possum and i chilled out on my bed under the air conditioner
isnt she beautiful? there was some progress on the striped hoody over the weekend
but i have been too tired to knit much this week. work is pretty intense right now.
i dont know what else – im distracted, worried, i want to be on the other side of the world.
im thinking of getting a cat. lila needs company other than endless squeakies
and i need a vermin killer. im hoping lila doesnt consider a cat a live squeaky and do this to it.
i just want to put on a trench coat on and stand out in the rain yelling ‘caaaaaat’. it will be a ginger and its name will be Cat. of course.
oh who am i kidding. i need to go outside and check on this fire. go buy ice cream. try to breath. something.
kxx
